Depressing..

It's getting really depressing nowadays. With work not progressing, and with lots of other troubles in mind, I feel I can't concentrate much with my studies. And I cant concentrate in lectures as well.

But I do understand whatever the lecturer were trying to teach. Just that I don't find the energy to write down notes even when it's early in the morning.

I am in a depressed state now. I'm not sure how to pop out of this state. But I better find a way to do so fast. Another assignment is coming soon...

I need to clear my mind. I hope I could have a break from all this for a while.

Sooner or later, I'll have to face this. Might as well face it now rather than running away from it..

Write more soon.

Regards,
Danial

Lecture..

Nowadays, the very word 'lecture' invoke a surge of laziness in me! The technology of Recap made me feel like it's pointless to go to a lecture. But still, Recap isn't as good as it gets in the real deal.

Probably some of you wonder what is a Recap?

Well, most universities have this but probably by a different name. Recap is this recording system that records the slides of the presentation that the lecturer presents and the voice of the lecturer as well. It's a great technology if you wanna listen back to any difficult ideas that the lecturers were trying to convey. Or if you skipped class...

Skipping class eyh? Should I or should I not? ;)

I wonder...

It's been ages since I've last seen my blog! Feels like a grown man looking over his childhood diary when I read back my posts. Those were the days when I have plenty of time in the world to write. But now, reality strikes. Amazingly how fast time passes me by. It seems like yesterday, the cold chilly air of Newcastle filled my lungs as I first step foot outside of the Newcastle International Airport. Now it's my second semester of my first year.

I have so much to say but so little time.

I'm not sure why I feel like I wanna blog again. Probably because there's this voice in my head that narrates almost anything that I do. Just like life writing about itself. I sometimes find myself sitting alone in the bus, looking out in the window to the clear blue sky, and I wonder.

I've reached so far...but there's more to reach out for.

The memoirs of my life, encrypted in my head starts to unravel itself. Flashes of memories starts to appear. One by one starts to be clear. The more I ponder, the weirder it gets.

Sometimes, when I walk through the plain field of grass, I started to wonder again. As the chilly wind sweeps on my face, stroking my hair back and forth, like a mother lovingly cherishing her child, I wonder...

I wonder when will it stop? But then again, every ending is a new beginning...

Updating! :)

Hi everyone! It's been a while since I last post anything! Memang takde orang baca pun =.= Well, anyway, what I wanna talk about on this post is more about me flying somewhere.

Truth is, I really don't know what I'm feeling! It's enjoyable that you're going somewhere, but it sucks when reality struck you hard; you gotta live there alone and start new! -.-" But I guess I'll be making new friends and more adventures for me! Hey! That's not pretty bad!

I would love to find an adventure there! Easier said than done right? Haha...Who knows, all that I do over there might just be sitting in my room with my books and my laptop once in a while!

But I do want to have a story to tell to my future children! (InsyaAllah, bila dah kahwin laaaaa). Wouldn't it be nice to share with your loved ones?

Hmm...it's almost time! I only have few days left! I dun pack anything yet! Checklist pun tak buat! Visa pun tak siap lagi! -.-

This is going to be hectic soon! I can feel it :(

Oh great news by the way! I got myself a home dah kat sana! Address nya! Rahsia :) But it's kinda far from the university. I guess I'm gonna buy a bicycle there. I wonder if I can still ride a bicycle :)

Hmm...I've heard stories abt that place! Let's just see how true they are, shall we? Or perhaps...I'll find out and post it back here! :)

Nonetheless, I'll be far off somewhere soon! It's nice to know there are friends who are eager to know where I'm heading to! :) And some friends who wish me luck there. Oh yeeeeeeeah! I'll be needing it a LOT!

Okay! That's about it! Till next time :)

Oh yeeeeeeeeeahhhh! Before I forgot

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

Forgive my Harsh words....Forgive for any of my wrongdoings to whoever you are :)

Beyond every hardship, there's candy :)

It was only few days ago when Pyan, Roni and Ainna flew to Melbourne to further their studies. Back then, I saw pyan's status.....My last day at Home. I fell into a sober...

I was happy for being able to fly. Who wouldnt? A sponsorship to study elsewhere in the world. Just the thought of that excites me! I was happy till I saw pyan's status abt his last day at home.

I love my parents and my family. I'm nothing if without them. Who is a man if not his father's son? It's just that I never thought it would be this hard. Seeing my sister flew away two years ago, I thought it would be a breeze for me to fly off. Heck! If she can do it, so can I!

But clearly it wasn't easy. It wasn't easy to have your heart fill with worries and uneasiness of what's happening at home. It wasn't easy to start a life somewhere without a family which is living almost 8000 miles away :(

I lived a happy life all this while. I guess its about time I taste hardship and experience life's most valuable lesson; Continue on Living no matter what. My parents are counting on me and I would try not to let them down. With this in mind, I know I can make it through...

Beyond the hardship of life, there's always candy :)

Closing down......Mayb not?

Alright guys. It has been two years now for this blog. There are sweet times and there are bad times. Honestly, when I opened up this blog it was just for KMS. Now that its over....I guess this blog shud end up over too.

But....

I think there are rougher and tougher roads ahead of me. And my best days are yet to come. So, heck! The blog stays....(This is also to jaga hati Abg Amir who apparently reads this blog!)

Well, results is coming out next week and I'm starting to be nervous. Oh hell, when its exam time....you can pretend like nothings wrong but the results would show that something's wrong. Hmmm.....scary, tense, nervous, anxious.....What else to describe this feeling?

I dun want to talk more about it. It'll just gives me headache. So pray for me, and for batch 4 IB KMS. Pray that we all be able to fly and make our teachers, parents proud.

An ending of a beautiful chapter...

Endings are hard. You can just pop out any beginnings but the endings are just impossible. You have to tie up all loose end and somehow there would be something that you'd missed.

Well, I guess this is an ending of a beautiful chapter.

I remember vividly two years back, on 24th of June 2008, when I first set foot in KMS. It was horrible! Every single cell in my body wants to run away! I even thought of staying in Klana Resort during my two years study here and take a part-time job in MaryBrown Centre Point to pay the bills. Smart eyh?

Well, that didn't work out. As much as I want to run away, I still have to go through this chapter of my life.

Two years ago...

"Hmmm.....is this a college? Its more like a military hostel. Why didn't I get Taylor's or KYUEM? Why must I get this college? This college is so terrible! The stairs in the academic block is like Hogwart's! Exactly like in the Harry Porter's, minus the moving stairs. Even that could be awesome!"

A long sigh came next. My brother looked at me and couldn't understand the feelings I had. No one did. I guess its just too hard for an ordinary school boy like me to suddenly move into hostel. But there's always a first!

"Belajar rajin-rajin! Kalau rindu, nanti mummy datang, ok?"

I nodded though deep inside I knew I don't like it here at all. I wish I could drive from Melaka to Seremban and back everyday!

"Mummy! Kalau titi (my name at home :D) tinggal kat Klana boleh?"

"Banyak cantek kau!"

"Alaaaaa...titi kerjalaaah...Bukannya sedut duit mummy daddy je"

"Jangan mengada! Ni kan best ni! Ramai kawan. Ramai perempuan"

"Perempuan? Apa kena mengena?"

We both chuckled. I knew she was trying to cheer me up. She knew I'm not familiar with hostels. Deep inside, I was still sad and troubled. Not to be able to sleep on my comfy bed and the chilling air-conditioner....What am I going to do??

That night, my mom called.

"Titi! Makan camne?"

"Boleh je. Tapi kalau dapat yang dari Melaka punya lagi best!"

"Hahahaaa....banyak cantek!"

"Handsome! Bukan cantek"

"Yer la. Anak mummy mana yang tak hensem!"

"Weeee!"

As much as I miss her, I guess she miss me even more. I realise from her tone of voice. She sounded sad. A tone I have never heard before. Never in my life. I guess I'm not the only one suffering.

This was two years ago. When my life in KMS had just begun. And now, I'm at the precipice of this IB programme. Many things has changed. I was wrong. I shouldn't have judged KMS for its place but for the people that made up KMS. The teachers, and the students. I have never experience such bonds before.

There's so much sweet memories here in KMS. The college might not be much, but trust me....the people in it is all there is about KMS.

During our mentor-mentee program, my mentor, Pak Lan, said

"Trust me! When you leave KMS later on, you'll miss this hell-hole"

I never believed him but I guess now I owe him an apology for that. I truly am going to miss KMS especially the people in it, now that it'll be gone.

Well, we all miss things when they are no longer in our hands don't we?

We only part to meet again....Goodbye KMS! I wish to meet you again. Till then....Thanks for everything.

THE END