Sunday 26 July 2009

Life

Given the opportunity to obtain life is one of the most amazing things...But as we live our life, we have experiences. Some were enjoyable, makes us jumping off our feet, but some are otherwise.

God has given a path to us. It is our destiny. I believe in destiny. There must be a reason that we are as we are. There must be.

Eventually, every single living things would die. Even when the new technology, able to replicate human organs, we would eventually wear off, no matter how many times we transplant our organs.

Even with such technology exist, I figure most of us would choose to die. Humans are destined to live on earth for a certain period of time before they move on. Why are we defying this by wanting to live forever?

I would rather die a man, than live for all eternity a machine.

Why is this so? Why I don't want to live forever?

To be acknowledged for who and what I am, no more, no less. Not for acclaim, not for approval, but, the simple truth of that recognition. This has been the elemental drive of my existence, and it must be achieved, if I am to live or die with dignity.

Things change, things always change. People move on. It's as it should be. But, what I realized today is that I'll never stop missing them.

Then, there is love. What do I know about love? That it is in many forms....That it can be expressed...That it would wear us off but we'll never get sick of it...

They say that love can make you can lose yourself. That two people can become so mixed up, that you don't know who's who or what's what. And just when the sweet confusion is so intense you think you're gonna die... you kind of do. Leaving you alone in your separate body, but the one you love is still there. That's a miracle. You can go to heaven and come back alive. You can go back anytime you want with the one you love.

Life has much to offer to us. I often feel sad to those who died so young, not knowing the beauty of life yet. It would take a lifetime to see the beauty of life but to be with God, is the beauty of everything.

I would not want to turn down this life that God has given unto me. God has given it to me, and so I shall live a life that's full. And so, I hold my hand up to my face, and pray to you oh Dear God, for there is no better planner than You Almighty. Give me the strength to live my life, and so Give the strength to people around me as well, and so may we live our life as a person. Amin!

Saturday 25 July 2009

The story of my heart....=D

I looked straight ahead, she was there....I studied her face, the curves are perfect.....Symmetrical....a natural beauty...

Suddenly, she looked up. I turned away, hoping she wouldn't noticed me. What would she say if she knew I was looking at her at all times? It's a risk that I didn't dare to take.

Immediately, when she starts to read her book again, I looked at her again. Admiring, the look of a natural beauty. I do not know her very much, but I do know her name.

This time, she held her head up and looked at me. She gave me a jolt! I was unsure of what to do, so I threw her my best smile.....And so she smiled back....

That has made my day.....


( this story is a made-up story...If you want to believe this, then it is up to you...)


Saturday 18 July 2009

I pray to you...oh Dear God....

Last night, I was very tired, I thought I would die in my sleep....but thank God I live to see another day... Today gonna be even more hectic.....If I live for tomorrow, then I'll be grateful to God....

I don't know why is it people love to put responsibilities on my shoulder which I feel damn heavy right now. Requires physical and mental strength.

Looking back in 1999, when I was given the choice to jump class to standard 5, I knew something big was coming but as a child I don't know what is it....All I knew was it will be hard for me to cope...

Believe it or not, I'm still coping....with people older than me, with the responsibilities that I should be carrying two years later, but I'm carrying it out now....with studies that I have to keep up, which should have been two years later....

A lot has to be sacrificed to cope for this changes. Probably those who did not jump class would not have know what I've been through, but perhaps just put yourself in my shoes as I would put into yours.

But then again, God is very just and fair......He created shoes that fits only you.....So I thank you God....for your grace that you have given me, a life that's full.....

Please give me the strength and courage to keep moving forward....please give strengths to people around me....Please give me the power to lead....And so God bless us....Amin!

Friday 17 July 2009

Desire for the truth

As painful as it is....I would really like to know the truth....

Saturday 11 July 2009

Pengalaman di PWTC....

Tersebutlah kisah seorang yang comel bernama Danial Foo....Yang diberi tugas untuk menjadi presenter tuk community service project kolej mara seremban. Aku tak berminat sngt pon, tp dah diberi tanggungjawab, maka jalankanlah dengan seikhlasnya.



" When a responsibility is given, then carry it out with all your heart "



Tugasan diberi hari selasa, pastu lepak sana sini ari jumaat baru nak buat. Padahal hari sabtu nak gi pulak tu....aku agak risau kalo bende2 camni lmbt dibuat, kalo tak siap sendiri yang kene...Tp diaorg ckp standard la tu....aku pon layan je lah...



Malam Jumaat tu aku mula buat multimedia presentation...Pkul 9.30 mlm. Sebenarnya pkul 8.30 dah mula fikir ayat-ayat yang berbunga cket...dekat sejam gak lah duk pikir bende tu...



Pastu bermulalah tugasan aku tuk buat video presentation....sepanjang waktu tu, Cik Noratika Halim dan Cik Syazwanie Seri Buana lah yang membantuku....



Terima kasih banyak lah kepada Cik Noratika Halim dan juga Cik Syazwanie Seri Buana yang berada disisiku sepanjang 6 jam membuat video presentation. Yang amat menyedihkan, kami ditinggalkan begitu sahaja dan mereka terpaksa menanti untuk ku menyiapkan video. Dalam waktu itu, aku belanjalah mereka air minum dari koop sebab syazwanie simpan kunci koop. Tapi air berkarbonat tu menyebabkan Ika sakit perut. Huhuhu, sorry!



Dalam 6 jam tu, 3 jam pertama tu ade gak lah org2 len. Pastu 3 jam seterusnya, kiteorg ditinggalkan kat wispi....Cuma ade aku, Ika dan Wanie.... =( ...Tp, mmg takde sbb pon diaorg stay kat wispi tu, kerje diaorg pon dah abis...



Bertiga kat wispi tu, dah takde bende nk buat....aku sembang lah ngan wanie dan Ika....Haha, Ika bagitau satu rahsia!! Wohoooo.....! Nak tau tak???!?!?! =D



Ok, lupakan bende tadi....Pastu, pada pkul 4.21am, siaplah video yang kami buat itu....walaupun taklah seberape, tapi saya rasa video itu amat hebat kerana kami siapkan dalam masa yang singkat dan suntuk.



Balik ke bilik, terus terjalar kat atas katil tido...sbb pkul 7 a.m nak bangun....Tepat pkul 6.44 am, aku rasa yang Maha Esa suruh aku bangun gi semayang subuh....dengan memberikan aku cramp kaki....sakit sngt....lama pulak tu, 2 minit ade kot....



Kaki kiri aku pon sakit satu hari, waktu semayang pon, kaki kiri aku sakit gak....Malam waktu buat video tu, tangan aku sebelah kiri jugak cramp sbb pegang tepon lama sngt berbual ngan kakak aku....



Dengan mata yang sakit....dan mengantuk, tambah lagi dengan tangan dan kaki kiri ku yang sakit....aku pergi jugak menjalankan tanggungjawab yang diberi.



Dawa tanya, "Betol ke korang abis pkul 4 semalam?"



"Yer...nape?"



"Ko tak nampak mengantuk pon....hebatnyer.."



Lebih kurang camtu lah sembang kosong kita sebelom bertolak. Sebenarnya, aku mengantok teramat sangat dan kaki ku waktu tu sngt sakit....tp aku sembunyikan dengan senyuman.....tangan aku balik2 mengurut kakiku yang sakit tu....aku tak nak org risau pulak pasal aku....biar je sakit...nnti dia ok la tu....



Sampai kat PWTC, bende cam biasa lah.....tunggu org lambat dtg...haha...normal kot tuk org2 MARA....mahupun bekas MARA....



Lunch aku patutnya lepas budak2 first gi lunch tu dtg balik, tp kena pulak tunggu jaga barang2...bersama-sama dengan leman, afi dan Cikgu hindon...Ingatkan bila budak2 tu semua balik bolehlah keluar gi mkn, tp org2 Ansara pon dah mula muncul....jd lupakanlah mkn tengahari....Dengan mata yang mengantok, kaki yang sakit dan tangan yang berdenyut tambah lagi dengan perut yang lapar (semalaman tak mkn dan takde breakfast T.T) , aku buat gak kerja....tp agak slow lah....



Akhirnya, mkn tengahari aku Pkul 3.30 ptg bersama2 Leman dan Ika....(Ika lagik! Banyak sangat jasa dia kat aku kan???) Yang beshnyer!!! Ika belanja aku ais krim!!!! Yay!!!! Ais krim RM1....besh tu....susah tau nak suruh Ika buka dompet dia belanja org....Hahaa...



Pastu sebelum kami pulang, aku sempat bergambar dengan Dato' Mukhriz Mahathir.....Hahaa...akhirnya, dpt jugak kenangan yang besh kat PWTC.....








Pastu kitaorg pon, pulang....kepenatan dan gembira....(Cam dlm buku cerita kan???) Haha....

Saturday 4 July 2009

Boleh belanja? Terima Kasih!

Pada hari Rabu yang lalu, Hari Registration...... tetibe je rase nak bermanje ngan orang....Jadik, aku pon gi mencari-cari orang. Haha.....random jek, takde memilih kasih tau!

Kalau nak bermanja ngan org lelaki, mak uih, haram dinampak orang! Mampos aku nanti....Maka si Danial ni pon mencari wanita wanita....

Waktu aku tengah melihat tauke Leman khusyuk mengoreng keropok Lekor, Dayang Nurul Afifah datang menjenguk. Aku pon mintak dier belanje aku. Dia pon mula lah merengek kat aku, ckp aku ni jahat la tu la.....tapi aku tak kesah....janji belanja...huhuhuhu....Selepas beberapa minit, dia hulur kat aku RM1... Wohooooo!!!! Teknik Berjaya!!!

Pastu aku gi lepak kat booth entrepreneur. Nampak si Saudari Miyn...nampak dari jauh, dier tengah goncang goncang tangan dia, mcm tengah betolkan remote TV astro rosak...... Rupe2nyer dier tengah bubuh coklat kat marshmallow......Punyelah hebat!! Aku pon memuji teknik yang dier guna.....pastu aku pon mintaklah belanja....Dia balik2 gune alasan baek punyer

"Tak pernah dalam sejarah, perempuan kena belanja lelaki" <-- lebih kurang camtu

Uih.....Pandai pulak dia berkata - kata....dengan rasa hampa, aku pon balek ke booth mercymedic balik....

Lepas tu, aku gi booth culinary.....nampak saudari Aien tengah menjerit-jerit memanggil kustomer (aku tak berape perasan pasal ni, aku agak dier tengah menjerit sbb aku tengok dari jauh!). Aku pon lepak sana.....tuk sekian lama, aku tunggu si Aien belanja aku. Dier janji dah kot! Menanti punyelah lama, pastu dier ckp....."Sori tak bawak duit" Aduih.....punah harapanku nak makan duit Aien....sob sob....

Kalau tak silap aku, Najaa ada belanje aku hari tu. Dier bagik aku RM1. Aku pon gembira giler.....mcm budak budak dpt gula2. Aku tak ingat sangat....haha...sori Najaa.....Aku rasa aku beli air culinary kot....Hahaaaa...mmg tak ingat langsung.....

Pastu2.....aku ada kerje jap....pasal mknn....jadik aku gi kat cafeteria. Sewaktu aku berjalan tu, nampak dayang tengah duduk.....jadik aku gi kat dier mintak lagik RM1. Buat muke seposen....aaaahahhaaa...

Sebelum aku blah....aku ckp kat dier " Duduk diam-diam tau, nnti abah dtg balik"

Tak tersangka-sangka, dier bangun dan jerit, sambil menuding kat aku!

"Bapak sape hilang!!!!! Bapak sape hilang!!!"

Ooooffff.....kalau dier ckp camtu jek takpe, ini dier jerit kuat-kuat......malu kot....nasib aku cover cket....aku pun berpusing-pusing carik orang sambil jerit

"Mane???? Mane???" Pastu aku cabut lari!!! hahahaaa....dahlah parents kat situ pandang aku....uhuhu

Selepas tugasku selesai, booth mercy pon dah bungkus....terima kaseh kepada ahli kelab mercy yang bertugas pada waktu itu...

Madihah
Amirah
Nabilah/Shilah
Iskandar
Mamat
Hazwan Johari

Pastu, aku lepak gak booth swatamu jap. Aku mintak Naurah belanjer kot. Aku pon tak ingat pasal ni.....Oh ya!! Mlm sebelum rabu ari tu, aku siap call Naurah mintak belanja kot....pastu dier marah kat aku! Oooofff!!! Tak berani mintak melalui tepon lagi....len kali aku mintak depan2....hahaha....

Naurah pon tak mau belanja.....atau dier tak bawak duit waktu tu???? Aku tak ingat gak bende ni....tapi dier tak belanje aku hari tu.....

Pastu, aku melihat Myra kat depan booth swatamu. Dia mcm tengah menari ke ape tah.....nmpk mcm tengah menari-nari lah....Aku pon gi kat dier....hulur tangan....

"Seringgit!" Dengan mukeku yang comel ( Aku raselah! ) dan perangai kebudak-budakkan ku, Myra terus hulur seringgit kat aku! Punyerlah besh!!!! Gembira giler!!!...Myra je lah, yang terus bagik kat aku duit....dier tak ckp sepatah haram pon..... Hahaaaa...besh giler kalau hari2 camtu.....kalau boleh camtu lah yer!!! Mungkin Myra boleh dengar perutku meronta-ronta tuk mknn, sbb waktu tu dah tengahari, aku tak mkn satu bende pon. Cuma minum air jek....hahaaa....Terime kasih tau!!

Ok, tu je lah yang berlaku pada hari registration. Lagipon, aku nak jugak tulis dlm BM. Haha....Terime kasih kepada

Myra
Dayang
Najaa
Miyn
Aien
Naurah
Dan ahli-ahli kelab MercyMedic...

Friday 3 July 2009

Pain....

How can we understand people's pain unless we're actually in their shoes? How are we going to laugh with them if we don't understand a bit of their pain? How do we know our pain?

How are we going to be doctors/dentists if we don't know how our patients feeling? How can we enjoy our work when their pain is not of our understanding? How can we laugh with them once they are cured since we do not know a thing about what they have gone through? we only know a portion of it as a third person....

How do we know their fear? How do we understand?

I saw young children suffered from cancer in a documentary, I felt life's is unfair. They have much to enjoy in life.....But God has His own ways...and I believe in Him....

How much do we value life if we don't value our pain? Look back through the pain that we have gone through and you might find your life more meaningful....

Do we want to be like the children? Suffering from a terminal disease and only then everything is treasured? Those children have gone through unimaginable pain that only God knows....

I only hope one thing.....That we would understand their pain....and we would share the pain to ease the burden on them....

Live with no fear of pain,


and by that,



we are free....