A message for you....Island girl

I'm in one hell of a dilemma. I don't know how to explain it, but I'm in a mess right now. Haha, to someone that I know, If you think I'm being too nice....or as though I'm trying to be close to you....well, I'm not. It's just the way I am. I think my classmates know that eventhough they won't admit it...Don't worry, I'm not into a blind relationship with someone that I know very little of :P

Heheheeeee......the truth is I enjoy your company, but you're acting a little different nowadays. It is clear enough that you're trying to avoid me. I want to tell you straight at your face but I'm scared that you're embarassed. I don't know whether she even reads this blog or not. But, if she does, I hope the message gets to her.

Well, to make sure that not the wrong person gets this message....she and I are from the same Island....I guess, only she knows what this means... :)

Forgiveness...

I want to apologise for what I have written on my previous post. I do not want to delete it because it would remind me of my foolishness and I'll learn from it.

For what have been written, for what had happened, let it remain in the past. I'm not saying that it is entirely my fault for what had happened. But a man must be brave enough to admit his mistakes. Yes, it is partly my mistake and I hope you'll admit your part of the mistake too.

I have not let anger took control of me before while writing in this blog. This is the first and would be the last.

I'm not a man that can easily, abruptly explode in anger. Throughout my life, there are only 3 persons that made me really angry and you're the fourth person and the first lady to do so. All the other person, I've asked for their forgiveness and now, I would want to beg for yours too.

Today evening, it rained heavily with thunders accompanying the downpour. It really shows how I felt these previous days, with the rain showing how sad I feel and the thunder signifying how angry I am. These feelings does not come often to me, but when it do...I hurt myself more than I hurt you.

I do not want a small matter to escalate and spoil the friendship that we have. I'm lucky enough to have you as a friend and I believe every person that I met have changed the person to whom I am today. So I beg of your forgiveness today, and now.

You do not have to ask for my forgiveness because I have long forgiven you. It is one of my principles that if I can't forgive any of my friends, then I do not deserve them.

Please accept it with an open heart, and may all our disputes forgotten.

This time I'm really angry....

Today my blood boiled. Not that I can't control my temper, but this is too much. After all I've done to help, and this is how you repay me? If you're a guy, you'll get something from me. I've done it before so don't fucking test me.

Enough is enough.....To think that the 'nice-comfortable' Danny got no temper? You're fucking wrong!!

I called you to inform 3 fucking times, then you say I didnt tell. Nevermind, I can still tolerate that. Each call like 5-7 minutes....So, you think whos paying the bill???

And the one I cannot stand is that she called and say " How could you say the wrong date?"

HEY READ THIS! I WAS GIVEN THE OPTION ON TUESDAY....so I tot you would do it on tuesday also....

and you only care to blame me without actually seeing what I have done? FUCK LA....I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THIS....

(fyi : The last time I curse was a year ago. The last time I went furious was 4 years ago. Thanks for breaking a promise I've made to myself!)

Tears for mankind...

Another news today. How I am sick of reading it again and again and again. I don't understand, if man are the smartest creature on the planet, why can't they live in harmony with one another? Why do they not learn from the past? How many have tried to kill one another and suceeded but there was nothing that they achieved.

Look at Caesar, who would probably have killed more than a million with his elite army, the Tenth Legion...In the end, he was being hated by his own senate and his best friend, Brutus. It was Brutus who stabbed Caesar to his death.

Take an example of Alexander the Great. Empire so vast but after his death, his generals splits up his empire and murder every single heir of Alexander including his wife.

Even the Holy Quran, commands us to study history and learn from it. Surah of Hud, verse 17 says that "Is he (to be counted equal with them) who relieth on a clear proof from his Lord, and a witness from Him reciteth it, and before it was the Book of Moses, an example and a mercy?.."

Which means study history and learn from it that adhering to Allah's laws as was the revelation given to Moses before this whom he made a guidance...

"study history, and learn from it"

Have they learn? I feel they never learn....

Goodbye...My rose....

Loneliness I've lost, these empty days without your smile and I'm gonna miss the wings of your campassion more than you could ever known. May you ever grow in my heart, you are the grace that place itself when lives were torn apart. You called out to me, and you whispered to those in pain. The stars spells out your name....never fading with the sunset when the rain set it. Your footsteps will always fall here along the greenest hills.

Eventhough I tried, the truth brings me to tears...All my words cannot express the joy you brought me through the years...

It seems to me....you live your life like a candle in the wind..

Blaaahhh....

Tolong la pergi....jgn hantui aku lagi...oh IOC, TOK oral and IELTS

What do I have against you?

Recently, there's someone who dislike me for not helping her with something. It's not that I don't want but its because I can't. I'd love to help people but there are limits to that. Don't expect people to be there for you everyday and treat you like a king. I have my limits as well.

I hope you realize this. I hope you know why I can't do that.

I won't ask for forgiveness since I did not do anything wrong on my behalf. So, I'll just let it be....

Blah Blah blah....

Erm.....nothing to say here actually...just keeping this blog updated. :P

Alright, I'm gonna ramble and I don't care whether you like it or not. What I like to do during my leisure time in the evening?

Well, lets see....

If i have partner to play with, I'll go for table tennis, or badminton would be fine. Sometimes basketball or petanque. I was a frequent petanque player before shifting to table tennis. If no partner at all, I'll read my novels....If I have read all my novels, then i'll doze off to sleep.

Hmmm.....thats it for today....hahahaa.....no particular reason for this post. Just filling my time. Tomolo got bio test wor... :(

Damn you....

I hate you...
I hate you...for everything that you did.
I hate you...for the times you were around
I hate you...for the help that you gave
I hate you...for the strength that you gave me
I hate you...for the smile that you gave me
I hate you...for the words that you encouraged me
I hate you...for the eyes that melt me

Everything you do, brings me closer to you.....You put me in a situation so complex, that I can't tell who is who, or what is what...

You changed the way I think....You changed the way I perceive things...

Now...I can only think of you...


( :P Jiwang enggak?)